This is another one

This world is constantly surviving on the very principal of SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST..
This is what happens when you loose something so close to your heart amidst the insane competition that this world today is thriving on ...

This one for me loosing my very close friend and myself in the mind struggle to battle illusion and reality..

This is what life was all before i met youFeeling low and destructed by being laughed upon Lonliness was my only companionThe thought of me being mentally affected made the veryExistance, nothing but a laughing stalk for those so calledBrains and Intelligent who knew nothing but to pull Another struggling person back to the drain

This is what i learnt from life before i met youBeing low and sad was the penultimate of happinessBeing Lonely brought mankind close to god.Being mentally unwell was much better that being laughed upon and being criticized.Lowering my confidence even for the things of which i was a master was safe for me as i knew nothing but embarrasment to the very existance

Time made me pray for a friend, A friend as naughty any sweet as the very definitionA friend as dear and supportive as foundations of diamondsA friend as encouraging as a mother besideA friend who knew me to trust and believe in as a friend,

Time & god answered my question by giving youA friend who was not as naughty as me but who liked to talk to me A friend who was so understanding, unlike my own mother at times of confusionA friend who was so supporting that i knew i had a shoulder to cry, if wantedA friend who made people call a doll or the penultimate of divinity in a humanand above all ,A friend who could love me as a human and a friend.

Looking at this masterpiece of the very divine feeling of friendship i fell into the so called pendulum of fast & competetive life and starting taking cautioned tasks only of the very fear of loosing that soul,that soul that was an answer from god.
Time as all say was nothing but a passing cloudtime passed and so did the priorities in life increase to such a level that looking for the right oppurtunity was more important than sitting and relishing the fact that god answered my questions..

You taught me to survive in such a world that is infested with evil and insanityLife taught me to survive in such a competitive world that was so fast enough to make Years turn to minutes and days to seconds..Looking for the right things made me realise the life before you staring at me if i went wrong or stupid in taking the right steps.. it was then that The remisence of those 2 photographs and the very sound of your voice revived the lost reality and the energy to live a competitive life..Time and commitment obviously made me realise your importance and developed a burning desire to meet and thank you for all that you have done to make me what i am today.

Life means celebration to a lot of us, and celebrating a freinds birthdaymade me loose all those professional ethics for a while and the only reconsolance that i could get for pausing the desperate search of that soul that made me live was nothing but an insane spirit called alcohol.
Thinking about the happiness of meeting you and walking a lonely road in my trance i see something blured in my sight.Your divine voice in the background, your divine smile in my sightYour so divine scent and most of all the most divine you in my mindi run for reaching those blocking normal vision,and all that is stopped by a errie silence.and darkness..and a strange feeling of being numb.

Then i see nothing but a group of people again critisising me for running against a speeding six wheeler that took my life and made me nothing but a thought for all those who knew me

I still haven't recovered from that trance and shall do so not when you flower my grave , not when you shed a tear for menot when you look at a picture and say "hey i know him, my friend"only when my soul meets yours and i fall to your feet and thank you for all that you have done to make me realize the very importance of myself.Until then i shall be a soul standing by you all the time with a tear in my eye and the thought of me in you that i am always there for you.

-- arun kumar